Age: 33
Hometown: Bronx, NY
Phrase that describes my relationship with money: Carefree
Phrase that describes my parents’…: Sad
My 21-day goal: To gain more clarity on how to become a better steward; utilize my money in ways God has ordained for me, and to be content whether abased or abound.
My weakness: Feeling as though I need to have everything now.
My fear for these 21 days: Not being able to purchase, not having enough…being without.
What I will miss most: Beauty-related rituals (getting my hair and nails done :'-(
I know I can do better. Did I need anything I purchased "out of turn?" Nope! I could have lived without all of it. No, I didn't spend as much as I would have normally spent because the conflicted spirit within was shouting "what are you doing?!" Yet, I did what I could to turn down the inner shouting and pressed on. Besides, I was trying to curb a desire that would eventually throw a tantrum to get its way again.
I realize that the way we deal with kids when they throw tantrums (ignore their bad behavior) is the same thing we must do when we feel our desires that operate as false needs.
So, I'm living, learning and pressing forward with the knowledge that I can do better. And one second, moment, or day I will do better. This journey has made me see and understand myself better. I also better understand the power that lives within me is stronger than the forces outside.
So I'm hitching up my boots and jumping back on the wagon again. Another day has been given to me and there is possibility ahead.
Fun Now/Pay Later
Hometown: Bronx, NY
Phrase that describes my relationship with money: Carefree
Phrase that describes my parents’…: Sad
My 21-day goal: To gain more clarity on how to become a better steward; utilize my money in ways God has ordained for me, and to be content whether abased or abound.
My weakness: Feeling as though I need to have everything now.
My fear for these 21 days: Not being able to purchase, not having enough…being without.
What I will miss most: Beauty-related rituals (getting my hair and nails done :'-(
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Man, did I fall off last week! What happened you ask? I just got lazy and started making excuses for why I could spend money. "Self, you deserve this," I said. "Go get some fast food and a manicure..." and the list goes on. I wish I could say I stayed strong and that I wanted accountability, but alas I just wanted what I wanted sound familiar? (I'm shaking my head up and down).I know I can do better. Did I need anything I purchased "out of turn?" Nope! I could have lived without all of it. No, I didn't spend as much as I would have normally spent because the conflicted spirit within was shouting "what are you doing?!" Yet, I did what I could to turn down the inner shouting and pressed on. Besides, I was trying to curb a desire that would eventually throw a tantrum to get its way again.
I realize that the way we deal with kids when they throw tantrums (ignore their bad behavior) is the same thing we must do when we feel our desires that operate as false needs.
So, I'm living, learning and pressing forward with the knowledge that I can do better. And one second, moment, or day I will do better. This journey has made me see and understand myself better. I also better understand the power that lives within me is stronger than the forces outside.
So I'm hitching up my boots and jumping back on the wagon again. Another day has been given to me and there is possibility ahead.
Fun Now/Pay Later
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